I cannot believe I am sharing this but here it is. This is my second attempt at a new creative outlet. The first one was not suitable to share. I actually hate what I did. But if I really take a look I would realize it speaks about the state of my mind lately. It is very busy and cluttered. But rather than give up I decided to give it another try. I was thinking cherry blossom as I was painting this one. I had never even held a brush before. So I bought a book about painting with acrylic. I read it from cover to cover and then headed to the craft store to pick up some supplies. It is no secret that I love photography. To me that is art. I create with my camera what I capture through the lens. I have always wanted to paint. I was intimidated with the thought of trying to create something from imagination. Something without that lens. I was only to rely on my mind.
I remember when I was in the fourth grade I won an art contest. It was a blue first place ribbon. I used pastels to make a butterfly. I was so proud of what I had done. I never expected to win. It certainly wasn't the best of the class. It is a memory that has stayed clear in my mind for all these years. I no longer have that ribbon nor do I have the drawing. I only have the memory of it in my head. Then life got in the way and as I grew older I never felt good enough or confident enough to pursue any of my artistic interests. Not even writing.
Although I was less than pleased with my first painting I have to say I enjoyed the process. I was excited to be brushing color onto the canvas. To be creating in a different medium. To be trying something new. I was lost in the moment of what I was doing as much as I do when I am behind my camera lens. The noise in my head began to quiet down and I lost all track of time. That is why creating is so important for me. It always helps me deal with fear and anxiety. It brings me into a moment, into the present.
I wish I knew how to do just that on my own. Until then I am glad I have found new ways to step outside of myself. I will try not to be discouraged with the product and enjoy the process. . .
Do you paint? What made you pick up that brush? What ways does creativity help you? Any advice for this newbie painter?
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